I have spent time and focus on healing -physical, emotional, traumatic, and spiritual. Which we now all probably understand is all interconnected!! I have gotten adept at time travelling into my past and revising my perception of events and rewriting my story thereafter about what happened and why and what it means about me.
And yet, bad things still seemed to come up. Things going awry, mal-intending people coming into my experience, despite my clear belief that I am a good person who is loving and kind and deserves love and kindness in her experience. If we create our reality with our thoughts and beliefs, and my thoughts and beliefs are positive- why the bad stuff?
Because I used to have the self defeating mantra that something bad was about to happen. I remember that anxious thought from when I was a child. I don't know where I learned it. My best guess is I picked it up from watching my mama Susan, who probably learned it from watching her mama. It's a chronic state of attempting to control everything so we stay safe and sound, while anticipating the worst case scenario happening. When this awareness occurred to me, I was stunned. I deserve the best, but I was operating under the mantra of something bad was around the corner.
REPLACE that!!! This takes practice, just like learning any skill. Just practice, intend to change and try again and again and again until you are fluent in "SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN!" We cannot always identify or anticipate what the something wonderful is, but we don't need to know everything. Just trust that once we program our system to deliver on wonderful, it is a guarantee. And then we can support this program's efficacy by observing the wonderful happening. Every little thing counts! Wonderful plants, wonderful people, kind words, wonderful weather, wonderful experience, wonderful thoughts, wonderful hairday :o), wonderful physical effort, feeling wonderful in our bodies or even just in a part of them. There is unlimited wonderfulness. Make yourself the best auto-corrector from something b@d ...to something wonderful. Reminds your family and friends. Spread the word...SOMETHING WONDERFUL IS ABOUT TO HAPPEN!!! Thank you universe!!!!! We gratefully accept it!!!